Hi.
It's been a long time since I posted here and I've gone through a lot.
This thread is going to be locked but I just felt I should update people and summarize things because I see a lot of replies that I never even knew I got.
The whole experience got me to realize many things and I've even learned things about myself. The reason that I asked for help here was because my friend introduced it to me and he thought it was a good idea which I can now find no logic in. At first I just felt like I can't join the army. I wasn't even sure why, but I just knew it. I figured out that I have nothing against the Israeli army at all. It is military in general which I have a problem with. I will certainly not get into it because I never came here to start fighting with anyone and it makes no sense to discuss pacifism with a forum full of people who wish to join the military. ;P
I am going to sort things out though. I'm doing research and I will speak to the pychiatrist in the army because they called me for it and I shall right a letter regarding my inability to be part of a military system. My hope is that I will be able to volunteer somewhere in a school with troubled teens. Actually, I would love to volunteer anywhere. I do wish to give back :]
I appreciate anyone who took interest and especially those capable of understanding my situation and that it's not the end of the world for a teenager to not completely understand herself. In fact, it is quite natural.

Thanks everyone.

Liat xx