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12-06-2008, 17:21
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חבר מתאריך: 02.08.04
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You screwed up
I, as a 17.5 year old, who also didn’t give a rats ass about anything at the time, realized at the age of 18 that it's time to grow up.
Unfortunately, the Army didn't find me attractive (to say the least), and not only was I given a Discharge from service, they REFUSED TO TAKE ME.
Do you know how many people patted me on the back, told me "don’t worry about it, now you can move on with your life while people do meaningless jobs for 3 years or go guard a random post where the scariest thing is rodent mating season going on right below your feet....
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I'm hold a Duo-Citizenship,. I was offered at the time to fly to the States and was offered different programs to help me thru school. May i remind you that with all this, i'm not breaking any law or have any remourse as I was REJECTED BY THE IDF and therefor I am free to do as i please when i please and how I please.
So what did I do?
I said no thank you to the prestigious offers, signed up to Mechina in a Cow dung smelly hilltop, Fought the system for over a year with constant phone calls, faxes, and high ranking officer’s who Vouched for me.
I was finally accepted to the military with a 45 profile, as if they were doing me a favor by drafting me, and there was no one happier than myself on this planet.
After months of more fighting, anxiety (which I was battling at the time, which was one of the reasons I was not wanted in the first place) I was granted a new Medical Examination, was seen fit to serve as a Combat Soldier, given the opportunity to try for Sayarot and against all odds became the oddest looking guy in recent memory in my unit to walk around at night with And1 shorts and a football jersey.
It seems we are facing each other, just in the opposite directions- I, now almost 25, FAUGHT like a mad man, to have the privilege to serve, in TOTAL DISREGARD to my own needs, when i had a green light from the world, to do as i please and move on doing what your doing now. I am done with my service, I have experienced things that no American or New Yorker will experience in 50 lifetimes, and am given credit for this while working with my peers in NYC.
I'm sure life is hard for you, the hard work you put in at Community College, and then moving on to CUNY and doing some more hard work over there.
it's hard for me to believe that you lack any sort of social life, and that your are studying 24/7 (even though I thought I saw you say you bar tend, so i'm assuming you do get some sort of encounter with the night life in the city that never sleeps),
You don’t know nor can you predict you’re future, you can only hope that the path you choose to take ends up being a good gamble
- I’m proud to say that mine did work out.
Patience (and I’m sure you will tell me you have a lot of it, after all, you must wait thru all your studying etc) is NOT your strong side, as you are hasty, and jump quickly to make decisions when you feel trapped, when you are in fact NOT.
You say you made a stupid decision at 17, a 30 year old will tell you a 30 year old makes stupid decisions, and a 60 year old will say the same.
Your experience that you gain with time is only as good as the experience that you actually gained with time- if one's a moron at 20, in most likely hood will be a moron at 40.
Your personality doesn't change, and it seems the only wiser you have become is how to avoid being sentenced, as oppose to really taking on your responsibility. It would be a shame that a rash decision at 17 changed the entire course of your life. You don't know if you will ever be accepted to the programs you want. You can’t guarantee that you will get thru medical school or your residency.
Assuming you did, no one guarantee’s you will be untouched; go figure what will be if you don’t become the world's next greatest MD??
So while you were working your ass off in CC and CUNY, others were fighting in a war. While you were bartending to pay off your expenses, other's left family, school, girlfriends.
Some even gave up the opportunity to come to the US, and be put through school, felt a self of responsibility, even though they knew that they may be better for the military once they come back with a nice PhD- unfortunately the battles and wars that we fight were not going to wait for “us” to finish school so we can then become professors in the IDF….
I did my time, and now I’m a young adult, but yet more mature than half of the 35+ year olds I see and interact with on a daily basis here. I run a project on a world wide scale in the field that i love (optronics) and I do not have to worry about how to avoid authorities and how to scam different systems to achieve my own goals.
Empathy you won't get from me, and you seem clever enough to realize this, and faced the fact already that you will not have a large fan base.
If, for some reason you do become a Dr; choose to give up working in a nice Dr’s office or hospital in the city, come back to Israel, strike some sort of deal with the Military and Medical Corps, make **** for money, go in to even greater debts- I would demand that you excelled in your profession, and brought justice to your selfish acts by giving an outstanding service from yourself, where people were actually affected by you, for the good.
One can truly only learn from their mistakes by owning up top them- and this I hope you do.
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